halloween

ashton this might have been your costume, but i think it's a super hot look for you! ;)

can you tell that doonie is supposed to be my dad??

so i love halloween! it is the best holiday next to christmas! the day that you can dress however you want and no one can say anything!! here are our halloween pictures

frustrated

today i am frustrated. i finally made up my mind about going to pa school, and nothing seems to be working out. first, the school i was going to apply to added a class like one month ago to their list of prerequisites, which i don't have. they said that people who have already taken this class will be interviewed and considered first, and then if there are any spots left they will interview people like me. any spots left?? are you serious?? last year like 1,200 people applied to that school and they only accept fifty. i don't think there are going to be any spots left. second, it says that the deadline to apply isn't until march, but apparantley it's just first come first serve. they are already doing interviews for the school, and my application isn't even sent in to CASPA yet and after they get it it can take up to five weeks to send it to my school. i also have to have a letter of recommendation for a doctor i have been working or shadowing for, and i've only been doing that for 2 weeks, none of them know me well enough to give me one, and i thought i had until march to get that. well, it looks like i probably won't get accepted this year, which makes me sad :(:( i don't know if i'll still be able to go next year. my family is priority now, and so i don't know if i'll be able to go. i should have made up my mind five years ago that that's what i wanted to be and maybe i would have done things different. oh well. at least sophie always knows how to smile at me or make a funny sound whenever i am grouchy! thanks soph :)

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i am quite proud of these pictures. i took them myself, i made the tutu and the bow... not to mention the baby too! i love these pictures so much! vote on which one i should blow up big!

dad/grandpa's birthday party!

my dad turned fifty today! what a good grandpa and dad he is! here are some pictures from his birthday party

my baby is one month old today!

What a crazy month it's been! I cannot believe that Sophie is one month old today! She is getting so big and chunky, and I love it! I am finally getting used to being a mommy. It seems like I have known Sophie forever, and I don't know what we ever did without her! Here is a quote from a book my cousin gave me that I like...

"When I first found out I was pregnant I was over the moon with excitement. Imagine this tiny little person with no previous thoughts or dreams- someone who I could teach about life, love, and the world. By week two after birth, however, I realized that I was not the teacher. Instead this tiny person was teaching me! Everyday I was learning something new about the selfless part of life- the place where your own needs come second or third; the place where sleep is something you do between feedings. How selfish we were with our time! I would never go back to being "just me." I love being a mom and the daily challenge it brings to not only teach our little princess, but also be taught be her. Enjoy every minute!"

Sure we have a lot of sleepless nights, poopy diapers, and spit ups but it's all totally worth it! I could sit and stare at her all day while she is sleeping. Anyway, here are some things about Sophie this month...

-when she's awake she'd rather lay on the ground on look around then be held

-we drag her everywhere with us! but we gotta get her used to going places!

-she took her first bottle from ashton like a pro! now maybe we'll dare to leave her with a babysitter!

-she gags on her binky

-she is so strong and can hold up her own head most of the time.

-she grunts and squeaks all night long... i can sleep through it, but Ashton can't

-she sleeps most of the day. but when she's awake she's really alert!

-she's going bald!

-she loves music and listening to her daddy sing and play the guitar

Love you Sophie!!! We couldn't ask for a better baby!

P.S. I finally filled out my application for PA school! Looks like I am SERIOUS this time! I hope I can get an interview!!!

my little sophie angel :)

so i guess i am one of those new mom's where all they can talk about is their baby! but hey that's my life now! so i have just been thinking back to the day sophie was born and i wanna write some stuff down while it's still vivid. i have always kinda wondered when a baby's spirit comes from heaven to their body. my mind has been trained to think scientifically so to me i've always thought that a baby became the baby the moment fertilization occurred because that's when everything about it is determined. and maybe it does? no one can really know. but now i might have a little different thoughts about it. when sophie was born she just had big bright eyes most of the time and she didn't really cry. she would just lay there and look around the room. it seemed to me like she knew exactly where she just came from and was actually smarter and knew more than anyone would think a brand new baby would. i think she really had just come straight from heaven. i still sometimes think she is like an intelligent spirit and remembers where she just came from and what she's doing here. she just can't communicate it because she's a baby. do you get what i mean? anyway enough with the cheesy stuff. sophie is getting big so fast! almost out of the teeny newborn clothes now. we took her to a restaurant for the first time this week, which she didn't really like. we also took her to church yesterday. she liked that. she slept through the whole thing just like her daddy! (jk) i've had a few great experiences getting barfed on, not spit up, barf. also some nice poop blowouts. i wish i took pictures! being a mommy is crazy! but i love it. it's scary to think that life will never be the same sometimes! but i think it's changed for the better! we love our little sophie angel and i wish she would stay little forever!

sophie's first week

i can't believe my little sophie is already a week old! i feel like she is getting so big already! we went to the doctor and she actually gained 10 oz. in week when usually they lose weight in the first week. she likes my milk i guess! the only thing wrong with her is that she has a little eye infection, but other than that we're doing great! she is so cute i love feeling her fuzzy little hair on my chin when i burp her. i also can't stop kissing the top of her head and he cheeks are so soft that when you touch them you almost can't feel them! i also love looking at her cute little eyes looking around when she's nursing, since that's about the only time she's awake. she also likes to peak out of one eye at us. also ashton is such a good daddy. she is already a daddy's girl. and i'm ok with that :) she loves it when ashton sings to her, she will just stare at him with huge eyes. i could not ask for a better daddy for my little girl, i love him so much :) everyone seems to think she looks like ashton. she managed to avoid the gigantic wittwer head, which i am greatful for, that would have not been fun to push out. but i PERSONALLY think she has my eyes and nose and ashton's mouth.