frustrated

today i am frustrated. i finally made up my mind about going to pa school, and nothing seems to be working out. first, the school i was going to apply to added a class like one month ago to their list of prerequisites, which i don't have. they said that people who have already taken this class will be interviewed and considered first, and then if there are any spots left they will interview people like me. any spots left?? are you serious?? last year like 1,200 people applied to that school and they only accept fifty. i don't think there are going to be any spots left. second, it says that the deadline to apply isn't until march, but apparantley it's just first come first serve. they are already doing interviews for the school, and my application isn't even sent in to CASPA yet and after they get it it can take up to five weeks to send it to my school. i also have to have a letter of recommendation for a doctor i have been working or shadowing for, and i've only been doing that for 2 weeks, none of them know me well enough to give me one, and i thought i had until march to get that. well, it looks like i probably won't get accepted this year, which makes me sad :(:( i don't know if i'll still be able to go next year. my family is priority now, and so i don't know if i'll be able to go. i should have made up my mind five years ago that that's what i wanted to be and maybe i would have done things different. oh well. at least sophie always knows how to smile at me or make a funny sound whenever i am grouchy! thanks soph :)